The reason behind this caffeine splurge has everything to do with some exciting and overwhelming news. Our little family is moving! In one week we will be the proud owners of our very first home.
I know there is never a good time to move, but boy are the holidays going to be chaotic with a new house. It's Noah's first turkey day and first Christmas, so I have that crazy, "everything must be perfect for him" mentality. Will I be able to put up a tree? How will we get the lights up in time? Where can we find a Santa Suit for Daddy to dawn on Christmans Eve? The holiday anxiety continues despite the fact I know he won't remember any of it. Oh, rational thought, why have you forsaken me?!?
Last night I plopped into bed, exhausted from some pre-packing organization. To my utter dismay, I couldn't fall asleep for four more hours. My mind was involved in what I like to call a "brain blitz" - a spiral of non-productive thoughts and worries that only leads to sleeplessness and unanswered questions.
I closed my eyes and saw the new house. Then I saw the puke-like paint in the family room. I started listing new paint colors and made a mental note to check for low-toxin paint at Home Depot. Then I thought, when will I have time to go to Home Depot, before I do the laundry or after I feed Noah breakfast? What should I feed Noah for breakfast? He has been a bit "plugged-up" so maybe I should try the flax seed oil I read about...but first I should call his pediatrician. Damn, I forgot to schedule his one-year shots. ACK! One year shots! Need to do more research on the MMR vaccination........ By this time 20 minutes of sleep has flown out the window.
Tell me please that this happens to you as well. I will then be comforted in the thought that I am not suffering alone (not in a "nah-nah-nah, schadenfreude sense", but more a "phew, I am not the only crazy one" type of feeling.)
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*Note: Wanted to somehow impart that I feel completely blessed that I have a new home to live and make memories in. I don't think I did that very well, so here is the addendum to try and convince myself I am not such a whiny biatch after all.
24 comments:
congrats on the house!
Huge congrats on your new home. Breathe! Everything will work out just fine.
*but i have had many of those sleepless nights myself :)
you are so not alone. I do this all the time, especially when change in on the horizon. Congrats on your new house that is very exciting and scary all at the same time. I hope that move goes well. And you know what the holidays will perfect for your little guys as long as you and your hubby are with him.
I do this ALL THE TIME. I will wake up at 3am with things bugging me. CONGRATS on the home!!
congrats on the new house! yes, it happens to me and my hubby! he calls it "horses are running around in my head". my suggestion that keeps me somewhat sane is....LISTS! honey, lists are a way to go! i make them all the time and check off each thing when i am done! good luck and everything will all be fine....
~Lara
Congrats on the new home! I'm a "brain-blitz" kinda girl too... I feel your pain! Just do your best to push it aside and smile over the fact that you have a new house to have worthless worries over :)
Yeah for new houses!!!
A huge congratulations on your new home. May you fill it with many sweet memories!
And, you weren't the only one up last night. My 3 year old has a bad hacking cold and I ate too much Super Fudge Chunk, chocolate ice cream. Bad combo.
Oooh, I had those nights before I was pregnant. So, if you need a solution to brain blitz, then I suggest get pregnant and have a newborn! ;-)
Love ya. Now, send me the house pictures!
Hugs...Summer
Oh yes. Most of my night are like that. My advice Benadryl.
Congrats on the new house! It may seem really crazy right now, but being in your first house for Noah's first Christmas will be amazing:)
you are soooo not alone on the can't fall asleep part . . . it happens to me ALL the time . . . check out what time I'm commenting . . . oh well, I'll be tired tomorrow! :-)
by the way, it's 1 am my time . . . just so you don't think that I think that 9:55 is very late . . .
Thank you for all you support and concern...it really helps :) And that`s funny you mentioned avocados because that`s the only fatty thing I know of also, so i`ve been giving him so many of those that he`s probably gonna turn green :) One of my friends also mentioned a high protein diet, too,so I`m gonna try that out as well...I really do appreciate your concern and try not to stress to much about the new house. Talk to you soon :)
I'm doin' it now :)
Yeah, I usually have this over stupid stuff, like deciding to redecorate a room.
Christmas will be fine! Mom and dad moved us and our first night in the new house was Christmas Eve. It was pretty cool to see taht Santa could always "find" you. :)
woohoo!! congrats on the new house! that is some exciting news.
and oh yeah, I'm never thinking while I'm at work.
good luck with the packing and moving. :)
LOL...Congrats on the new house! You aren't the only parent to forgo all rational thought in the name of a perfect holiday! Honestly, my post I've been working on for tomorrow is about this very thing!
Too fun are the firsts...but then remember that each new milestone he reaches will seem just as brand new for you. Good luck packing up! Hope it all goes smoothly. Oh--and try and get some sleep.
Congrats on the house...and yes there are several nights where my brain will not shut off and I can't stop thinking! It drives me crazy!
Congrats how exciting!! You are NOT alone. My daughter rarely sleeps but when she does I am always wide awake thinking... and thinking... and thinking. About the same types of things too. I always plan out the meals for the following day, make mental to-do lists and go over all the bills in my head. You are not crazy, just overwhelmed!!
by the way, my daughter is the same age and I am the same way about her first holidays, everyone always says "but she doesn't even know" and I tell them "but I know!"
Don't worry Rach, I totally do the same thing. I perseverate on going to meetings - whether amongst supervisors (b/c I don't want to look or feel stupid), or amongst professionals at IEP's (I am also afraid of verbal diarrhea). I get jitters and keep myself awake at night, or I have "dreams" about anxiety inducing scenarios. It happens to all of us, especially those of us who are "Type A." Though I cannot necessarily relate on the mommy, or purchasing a new house front, I can definitely relate on "an overall high level of anxiety" aspect. However, I can say that I have full faith in you that you will be able to pull this off. Also, with the exception of Sat AM's, I can be readily available for babysitting services on most weekends, if that is of any help. =)
OMG! Congratulations!!!!
That is so exciting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Holy Balls! Moving during the holidays? That is what I am so desperately trying to avoid. Instead of hoping people come and look at my house, I am hoping no one notices it is for sale until December 26th! So far it has been working, though I'm not really sure if that is a good thing! Much luck to you and your big adventure!
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